Friday, July 31, 2009

When At First You Don't Succeed

Be thankful you get to try again.

It's been exactly one week since we received the phone call letting us know that only 3 of our 13 retrieved eggs were mature enough to attempt to fertilize. We knew at that moment our chances of conception at the end of the cycle were diminishing rapidly, but we never completely lost faith.

And now, even after an early conclusion of our first IVF attempt has come to pass, we are still praising God for his faithfulness and mercy, thanking him continually for the chance to try one more time.

During our post IVF phone consult with Dr. Greene this afternoon our conclusion remains the same, as does our optimism for the next cycle in September. He still feels that I responded perfectly to the protocol and medication, so the only change taking place will be the timing of our HCG trigger shot. If administered at a more appropriate time, we should be able to produce more mature eggs and eliminate all of the drama and disappointment that yielded from our last failed cycle and replace it with plenty of healthy, viable embryos.

As my bruises heal and our hearts mend, we're excited to see what our next try in September brings; fighting fear and doubt brought on by last weeks loss with our optimism and hope for our next try. We know our chances of success are even higher next time, but there is always the possibility that something different could go wrong. Even a perfect cycle may not lead to conception.

But it could, and that's good enough for us.

"How long should you try? Until."
-Jim Rohn

25 comments:

Mishi said...

I am so disappointed that this try didn't yield the results for which you prayed, but I am so happy that you are able to try again immediately. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Hillary said...

I love it that you are praising God in the midst of your pain. I am thankful you get another try, too!

Kelli said...

So thankful we get to try again! I'm already praying for your September cycle...knowing that the RE has more info, you still have faith, and God is still in the business of answering prayers!

Lisa said...

So glad that you are still able to see the positive out of all this, and it will work the next time. I just KNOW IT! Oh and I love your new background btw...very cute!

J said...

Your faith and positive attitude are inspiring! Hang in there--it will be your turn soon.

Sumer said...

I am praying for you and your september cycle. I should be cycling around that time too (late september I believe)! It will be a good month for both of us!

Stephanie said...

You know I am so excited about September for you!!
Thanks for always sharing your ups and downs with us..we are praying for you!

WantWait&Pray said...

Well said sweetie. You have to keep that hope up...keep your faith and let God lead you and Will through every step along the way.
Thank you for your inspiring post...as always!

Suzanne said...

I admire your optimism and perserverance. I'm praying that IVF#2 is successful for you!

osuraj said...

(((Hugs)))

JGirl2005 said...

I love your positive attitude. I will pray for a good cycle for you next time. Many thing can change it for the better!
I have MFI and it is very hard and you still feel infertile as a couple if that makes sense.

Sumer said...

Hey Tabitha!! Check out my blog - I tagged you for an award!! One Lovely Blog Award!! I follow your blog and think it is awesome! I should be starting my IVF cycle in September and am glad I found others out there to find comfort in.

Sumer

JackieMac said...

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J said...

Nominated you for an award! Check out my latest post.

Mrs. Hammer said...

I will be praying for you and your second chance. Your cycle hit very close to home with mine. While we did make it to transfer it was not without the scare of almost being cancelled and then we had very few embies fertilize. Our cycle did not work either. It appears we will be cycling together in September. Hopefully we will both see (+)'s this time around!

ASHELY said...

You are in my prayers. I hope that this next round will be it for you!

I tagged an award for you on my page. Please check it out!

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

it must have been so wonderful to hear the doctors feedback. all he needs to change is the hcg..?! you can do that!!

september will be here before you know it.

Dianne said...

Oh good luck. I conceived on our second IVF. We didn't have any embryos the first time either. SO good luck - miracles happen - I am proof of that!!!!

Michelle said...

I'm so sorry this turned out the way it did. I wish I had something wise and intellectual to say, but know that I am rooting for you and want the best for you!! You have something on my blog waiting for you!
~Michelle

Tim and Heather said...

Tab, I'm sorry for your frustration through the whole process but I'm so glad you have suh a positive outlook on your future. Some things I wanted to share with you:

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord,, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm
you, plans to give you a hope and a future" Jer 29:11

Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Psalms 121

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

I hope this helps! I will definately keep checking in with you and praying for you.

Katie said...

I've been following your IVF. Your strength and faith has been inspiring to me.

Check out my blog...you have an award waiting for you!

satto said...

You are so amazing. A model for us all.

Brittney said...

I'm so excited to be going through the September cycle with ya!! Here's to prayers for a successful cycle for both of us:)

Rebekah said...

You attitude and faith are amazing! It is such a blessing to be able to try again!

Jenny said...

Thank you for being so positive, It has inspired me to try and do the same, which I really need to do. Our histories are similar, so I will be following your story and wishing you the best! I am cycling for ivf/icsi starting about a week after you.