Thursday, October 2, 2008

What Now?

So which way do we go from here?
Anywhere, as long as we get somewhere.

Another IUI? Another trip to the Dr. to discuss a more aggressive treatment? A much needed break cycle while we find some answers? As much as I want a baby, I would rather we take our time and do it right. At this point I can't justify doing another IUI/clomid cycle until we figure out what's going on with these crazy-low post wash counts.

Our previous basic SA was done about a year ago, and several Dr.'s have looked at it since then and said it's "fine". The numbers were said to be normal, with a borderline slightly low morph, but nothing that would really keep us from achieving a pregnancy. However; these past three sperm washes have proven that something may not be "fine", all of the counts have come back pretty low. Usable, but low. So as soon as that HPT turned negative last Monday, I was on the phone with my Dr. asking what he recommends. He thought it would be wise to do another SA and go from there. So this morning my poor husband did his business in a cup for the fourth time in the last two months, and now we wait.

Speaking of waiting...AF hasn't officially shown up yet thanks to the dramatic dragging out of my luteal phase brought on by my beloved (and unnecessary?) progesterone. But our spirits are up as we wait on the possibility of finally getting some answers other than a sensitive cervix. And I'm over whining and complaining about our situation, obviously God has us here for a reason and I plan on trying to enjoy the ride. I know God has a bigger plan for us then we could ever imagine and I just need to trust that, lean on Him, pick myself up and move on. Fall is in the air, the holidays are coming up fast, and I have too much to be thankful for to be dwelling on the uncontrollable.

So here's to going somewhere, anywhere, and finding some answers.

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
'That depends on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.
'I don't much care where' said Alice.
'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.
'so long as I get somewhere,' Alice added as an explanation.
-Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

3 comments:

Waletzko's said...

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass...it is about learning to dance in the rain."

Jennifer said...

Tab, you're such an inspiration. Your positive attitude is commendable and I really try my hardest to be the same way even though we're going through difficult times. Good luck with your decision :-)

Melymel80 said...

Hun I know exactly how frustrating the low post wash counts can be. Just like you we were unexplained. The SA's before treatment were all normal. The we started the IUI's and our post-wash was low. 11 million for #1, 8 Million nfor #2 then 2.4 million for #3. With that bein said #2 was a CP and #3 was a BFP. So it totlly can work with a low post-wash. I really hope you get some answers soon.. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.