The Dreaded Two Week Wait

Is driving me insane.

I'm in the dreaded and infamous 2 week wait...and I'm trying everything I can think of to keep myself busy. I feel physically and mentally incapable of thinking about anything else other than the outcome of this cycle. Tomorrow I start sewing lessons, so hopefully that will keep my mind off of every little ache, twinge and cramp that I have. When did I start living my life in 2 week increments? Oh, that's right...about 19 months ago! It wouldn't be nearly so bad if it was the 1 week wait, or better yet, the 2 day wait. Stupid infertility. *Sigh*

"There is more to life than increasing its speed."

-Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi

A Good Thing

A new way to look at infertility!

One of my friends recently revealed on her blog that after a struggle that lasted a little over a year, she is finally pregnant! In response to her blog, someone left a comment stating that “This just proves that your child is essential to God's purposes here on earth and will be so powerful! Look at how the enemy tried to stop he/she from coming into this world!”

Isn’t that an amazing way to view infertility? My child/children will be fighters, they will be strong, and they will be blessed. They will be important people, with hearts that will serve the Lord and accomplish great things. Because of this, Satan wants to do everything he can to keep them out of this world.

Infertility is a constant struggle, but perspectives like this make it all the more worth it to me!

"If it takes my whole life I won't break, I won't bend. It will all be worth it. Worth it in the end."
-Sarah McLachlan

We Have A Plan

After meeting with the Dr. last Thursday, he found us to be good candidates for an IUI. We are very happy with him; he listened to all of our questions and concerns, answering in complete detail and thoroughly explaining everything for us. He seemed pretty surprised that all of the other Dr.'s we've seen have brushed us off, telling us we are "fine". He said after this long, it's about time we start doing something about this. So here's the plan:

CD 5-9: 50mg of Clomid
CD15: sonogram to check follicle size & trigger
CD16: IUI #1 (12 hours after trigger)
CD17: IUI #2 (36 hours after trigger)
CD19: Start progesterone supplements

Even though my body ovulates on it's own we are going to try out Clomid to see if we can't get some stronger results, or at least a few extra "targets" to hit. I have to admit, I'm pretty nervous about the Clomid. Up to this point the only thing we've done is chart ovulation and my period. Now we are going to introduce a fertility drug into the mix, and I guess it just seems so official! After that, he plans to do a sonogram to check the growth and see how mature my eggs are, and if they are ready he may give me a trigger shot to ensure a timed ovulation. Then the IUI, which will hopefully help bypass any "hostile cervical mucous" that I may have (there is a possibility that the reason we aren't getting pregnant is because my body treats sperm as a foreign anti-body and kills the sperm before it has a chance to reach my cervix. The IUI will allow the sperm to be placed safely inside my cervix, and away from any sperm-killing CM). Then finally, progesterone supplements. I'm pretty excited about these, because for the last year I have been experiencing horrible spotting before my periods. My progesterone levels have been checked pre-ovulation and said to be fine, but this progesterone should stop this ugly spotting once and for all.

So that's our plan. We are trying to keep in mind that while medical intervention in most situations can help achieve results, only GOD is in control and can give us the baby we have been praying for. For now we'll just have to give an IUI a shot, and hope for the best.

"100% of the shots you don't take don't go in."
-Wayne Gretzky